wad a mess lols..
hmmmm..first thing i had to mention here is i totally gave up on the gal i love and i told her is better we still remain as frens..so i think i wont be mention about stuffs between me and her in the future in here oso le..haha..and also boon yan..u put dis in ur msn nick In the end what can time prove..i find it very meaningful but seriously time can prove anythings..i dun know how to answer u dis oso..and xiang yuan..hope u really cherish ur chance and prove urself to the gal u love dun be like me dun even have a chance to prove end up giving up like a lousy guy haha..den jus now went out with alpha to send his girlfriend home he injured his leg quite badly haizz...after sending his gf home we talk a lot while walking and taking bus home..i really like dis feeling talking to him..i told him the day i had a girlfriend would never come cos i will never understand wad a gal feel or like..i will be jus their burden..why not i jus wash my hands off all these love stuffs but i do know i will open my heart again for someone dat i like or a person dat like me in the future..
To Alpha..
bro..i can say i dun understand u 100%..but i do understand u 99% of it..jus wanna say sorry..sometimes i jus dun know how to express out things to u..i think..the reason i dun have gf is i am ugly and i sux in everything ba..but nvm..got u to stand by me i will be content for it already..Labels: friends are important..
posted at [12:33 PM]
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Can't help loving you each day i wake up
Finally update my blog here since for ard 1 week plus i think..
Today i went to alpha school and play basketball but when i step into his school everyone treated me like alien sia..cos my sch uniform shirt infront is zip up de..dis shirt only Simei ITE sells it haha..den after that when alpha and his fren benny came we start warming up play basketball..got 5 other guys joined in so we deicide to play 4 vs 4 in the end i end up with 3 guys which i dun even know as a team..was thinking to be in alpha team de haizz..den 2 of the guys in my team damn show off..in the whole game i only score like 2 goals i think haha..while playing i did notice She came to sit down on the chair with her fren..but when she saw me she went off..after the bball game ended i went to a block downstairs and slack while waiting for alpha to release from school and i sms her dat i didnt saw her haizz..in actual fact i did saw her de..after that i call up 1 of my fren and chat for ard 2 hrs plus i think den jus nice going to 4 o clock i go back in clementi ITE wait for alpha den we kept chattin but..i kept mention about her dat i think she hates me ba..when we reach the bus stop while waiting for the bus alpha intro me to his classmates lols so pai seh sia..but they were nice ppl haha..and when we taking bus alpha as usual see me EMO he said he regret intro her to me..i said that is not ur fault is i am the 1 which is foolish and i dun know why i love her so much..i told alpha that i really dun wan to say i wan to giv up on her cos i dun wan to break my promise for her..i really jus wan to lie to myself dis once and last time dat she will love me one day and i know i am jus plain foolish and gamble everything..haizz thats all for today i am sorry alpha :(
To Angela,
i am sorry..i did saw u in sch today..i guess u were scared of me and u chose to walk away ba..and 1 of the msg i sended u is i wan u to be happy and dun feel so down..cos i can still hold on to u i am jus plain foolish doing as many things for u as i can and waiting for u to love me
dere is once u called my fone i am sorry i didnt pick up cos i didnt notice it but i really wan to hear u telling me ur feelings when u feel sad and down..if anything i can do for u i hope u can tell me..remember i told u dat even if is only 1% of chance u will fall me i will oso keep trying till it happens..i wont break the promise saying those words dat made u cry..and dont worry u don't have to love someone till u sad..cos i can afford to love u with all my heart even if u don't love me..Labels: what to do..
posted at [2:33 AM]
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lols..bored day..
lols..seriously i don't wad to post today oso..and is a late post too haha..seriously doing nth much today..but i did 1 very good thing today is cheering myself up by telling myself that..i dont really have to wait for her till i get very emo..why not i jus treat her good as a good fren and be there for her when she needs me maybe one day who knows? she might fall in love with me haha..cos..wads meant for me it will really be mine noting for me to get emo or sad about it..and around 5 o clock i meet alpha and his family for some dinner..after that went to lan shop and play DOTA for ard 1 and a half hour den we went to pick up alpha's girlfriend from work..den we went to eat again and i saw alpha and his girlfriend playing ard biting each other haha! indeed i am jealous and envy of dem..but i oso tell myself that my happiness will come one day oso..its jus a matter of time,fate and patience..and oso guess wad? i even told angela that no need to be sad about the guy she likes dosen't likes her..cos wads belong to her it will evenually come to her..and one last thing is..alpha..try to drink more coffee cos i see u these days very tired LOL!! kkz end of my post todayLabels: Loving U always :)
posted at [9:25 AM]
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I have too much things to say in this post i guess..first thing..Angela gave me a chance and gave her ownself a chance to stead with me and try out..yesterday my birthday we went together as stead..but i know she don't even have feelings for me..while we taking train to orchard..i kept hugging her tightly in my arms..when we finally reached..we went for abit shopping and while shopping i kept holding on to her hand..after that we went to burger king and eat(thx for treating me eat angela) and we kept laughing and chattin very happily den i requested that we proceed to plaza singapura..as usual we do some window shopping and chattin happily along the way..after that she say she quite tired and wanted to go home..so i offered to send her home..while taking the train she suddenlly sleep on my chest and i sleep beside her too..in actual fact when we go out..i kept taking out my phone and see the time..i told her that i kept doing it because i wish that time will stop at the moment but i know i will be jus lying to myself cos it will never happen..when i reached her hse we kept chattin with each other..she told me she's sorry that she jus not prepared to love someone..i cried..and she hug me and say she didnt meant to hurt me..i told her that i cried is nt because u hurt me is becuase i am scared u might feel sad everytime without any guy that truly loves u..and i didnt mean to make u cry too..its jus i wanted to say out wad is in my heart...you don't have to love me now..but i can love and take care of u whenever u need me..you don't have to be like last time where u have to love a guy which don't love u and makes u hurt everytime..i promised u that u will never be hurt by anyone..if u really wan to make me give up loving u..i shall tell u that is not gonna work..cos i tell myself that one day u will love me..even if its jus a bit is enough to go back to that moment we had..i will be waiting at that moment we are together again as a loving couple..don forget i am still in your waiting list as the only person hor :)Labels: First and Last
posted at [8:16 AM]
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If i let you go,i will never know wad my life will be holding u close to me
Today i have nothing much to say though..i jus recive a msg by alpha's girlfriend saying that our supervisor say if Me and alpha dun go work on sat and sun den we no need go again le..Wth lo..saturday i birthday u expect me to work on that day meh...Haizz never mind la..since i going in army in a month time only..Wad really hurts my heart today is i told the girl i really love that i only like her very much as a friend..cos i still don't have the courage to tell her how i feel for her and treating her good is wad i wanted her to feel that she is fortunate and making her happy...i really wanted to see the outcome..i dun mind even if is bad or good..why cant i jus say out my true feelings...haizzzLabels: painful heart
posted at [11:04 PM]
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Army On June 15
Actually all i wanted to say is i am going in army on june 15..well..going in early is good..cos when i come out i still got time to study and play a bit haha..the ony thing is i gonna miss all my friends and family..haizz..but never mind next week friday is my buddy birthday and get to go zoo and we get to see animals!!! Den After that Saturday is my birthday and i get to see Angela again =p miss her sweet smile and her violent actions LOL!!! No la..Overall She is Sweet..And My supervisor Strike 4D And She treat me and my other staff Pizza Hut And KFC How Nice of Her hor..kkz i gotta go le enough for today..Labels: Army Daze
posted at [8:25 AM]
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My Most Unlucky Day
Sorry for late posting haha..Yesterday was my most unlucky day Cos someone put a big packet of plastic containing 6 small packets of titbits inside my locker..And the packet of titbits is nt even paid yet but it was already open by someone and eaten 4 packets it was suppose to be 10 packets in total de..den i quickly tell my Senior in charge about dis incident..but she wasn't suspecting me rather den she was suspecting someone already..And i dun know which cruel person wan to do dis to me but i luckily still got my best buddy alpha and Angela to console me and talked to me..thx pals..Now waiting for my supervisor to come back on dis saturday and see how everything gonna happen..haizz..wad an unlucky day..Labels: Unlucky Day
posted at [12:18 PM]
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A sweet girl i have jus known :)
2 Days ago i know dis girl named angela through my best buddy Alpha..When i first saw her she looks really sweet jus that she's a bit kinda violent..LOL!!! We went to Plaza singapura with my best buddy to shop ard..while we were doing window shopping i started to chat a lot with her or should i say went we meet inside MRT i already started to chat with her and joke a lot haha..And when we went for some lunch at Burger king She feed me 1 french fries (So sweet right?) After that we continued our window Shopping And Alpha bought 1 frog piggy bank which is damn cute i should say..after all the fun we finally taking train home..and we were taking pics with each other and 1 of the pic is we put the frog piggy bank on an empty seat and took a pic on it..i know is lame LOL!! So thats All for it..Wish to see her sweet smile and ask her out again haha..Labels: Outing
posted at [12:14 PM]
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