Hello..
I am back after 2 long weeks in NS!!! well..really too much things to say here cos many things had happen inside camp for the whole 2 weeks..ard the first 3 days i kept crying..the second day i cried cos i lost my wallet and i miss my mum..alpha.. friends and everyone but of course the following days passes inside i still got cried sometimes silently even when marching too..i think a lot about wad had happen outside and of course i met quite a lot of nice ppl inside camp haha..and everytime when before lights off inside camp i see my bunk mates chattin wth their girlfriends i felt envy and jealous though..but since i am in army now i dun really wish to have girlfriend cos..if i had 1 i scared i might ruin her future and everything and i only can come out 2 days per week so i dun think i have a need of gettin 1 haha..and sometimes while sweeping floor at first floor is my favourite cos i can see outside cars and buses pass by..when i see it i felt happy..u guys might think i might have gone crazy after going in NS but frankly speaking at least i get to see something different from inside camp lol..and the training inside is quite tough of course..cannot afford to do any mistake if not must do 20 push up per mistake haizzz...den yesterday book out i and my platoon mates take bus to pasir ris train station and i meet alpha at the control station when i saw him i quickly hugged him LOL! really miss him a lot after that we kept chattin with each other happily as the same old times..after that when we reach bukit gombak which is the place where we live..and guess wad? i was looking out of the MRT window all along but i cant reconize is bukit gombak! LOL and alpha was shock when i told him about it...den jus nice i was about to walk out of the train station we met hui yi and hui was shock and hug me while welcoming me back haha..she is the same old siao char bor i used to know after that i went home..when i reach home my mum was not in den my auntie help me heat up the food let me eat..while eating i felt like is been like ages i never go home le..the feeling is very good and comfortable..after a while my mum reach home and i hugged her..really miss her a lot a lot...hmm..is like everything and feelings start to flowing back to me..i never felt dis way before in my life...after a while i went to check on my blog tag and i saw angela talking about something happen between she and alpha..i knew it something will happen to both of dem while i am in camp haizz..and i heard from alpha that angela jus got herself a boyfriend but less den 2 weeks broke off le..i was like shock cos is like the relationship ended so fast..and i guess she is feeling very sad now haizz..den jus now earlier on went to play lan games with alpha,evon and samuel..is been like 2 weeks i never get to play any games but jus now when i playing with dem i felt more happy den last time though which i dun know why..i slowly cherish time i had with my mum,family and frens..cos i dun really wish to waste any time anymore le..den after lan games i and alpha went for some basketball..but is not really dat fun..the fun part is talking with my other frens at the basketball court..hmm..back to angela's case..well..somethings in ur life especially R/S thingy it comes by and goes off really fast at times..so angela..i hope u dun wait for the guy..not because about wasting ur youth or anything its jus not worth it..in life there are still many things waiting for u to do..though i dun have any girl i love or admire..but i still happy cos in life the most important emotion a human needs is feeling happy and not always sad everytime..haizz tomoro so fast must book in camp again le..but dis time better cos is 1 week book out 2 days..like dis i still can take it lols...and 1 last thing to mention here is thank u for everyone welcoming me back and waiting for me.. :)
posted at [9:05 AM]
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NS Time
Well..haha..I dun really know how to start though cos many things i have to mention here cos i Wont Be posting Another Entry After 2 Weeks Later Cos i am going in NS Later Haha..Today Early In The Morning Angela Smsed Me dat she broke off frenship with alpha and i was kinda supprise too after that i called her and chated a while but i didnt ask her wad actually happen ..den After that i meet My best bro alpha,evon and samuel But i made alpha angry cos i am late again haizz but he forgive me..As usual we went to bukit timah Beauthy world plaza and play DOTA while evon playing Age of empire haha..Den today finally i get to be top frags for once cos mostly Samuel always kill the enermy heroes damn fast lo..After we played finish We take bus home to bukit gombak..den we walk to market cos i need to cut my hair Botak LOL!!After cut finish i dun know why alpha samuel and evon say very nice and look handsome..-_-
And Later we went home on ourselves..when i reach home my mum,auntie and my uncle say very nice oso which is i dun understand why...after bath i went to find alpha at his hse his mum saw me oso say dis hairstyle suits me and is nice..i was like OMG! I DIDNT KNOW ALL ALONG DIS HAIRSTYLE WAS THE BEST FOR ME!!!LOL!!And also as usual me and alpha send evon home..den after that me and alpha take bus home and i decide to go 7 eleven to get some thing to eat and drink..and we bought 1 piece of pizza and 1 green tea and sit down on a bench and talk..while chattin i felt a feeling which is very comfortable..and suddenlly i cried cos i really gonna miss alpha and my other frens and my family..in actual fact i wanted to tell angela is..i know alpha since we are in the same kindergarden till same pri sch jus that sec sch and ITE is different..and jus a blink we know each other inside out for around 14 years plus already..dis may sound a bit gay for those viewer dat view my blog entry..but we almost everyday meet each other.. joke around and been through everything thick and thin all these years...when i was being lock up before i need to find my family i cant find dem cos they are working i understand..the only fren's number i can remember is alpha's house telephone number..i called him to help me tell my uncle to inform my father to bail me out when he reach home..he helped me in every way and i am a very easily influence boy dats why alpha and my family are very worried about me...though i may not have a girl i love but i do have a best fren i love in a buddy way and my family.. so u guys dun mistaken for gay lols..And after that around 1 o clock alpha came to my house we watched some youtube videos and i loan him my PSP since i am not gonna use it for now anyway..and 1 of the video which is damn cute and funny is showing around 8 to 9 puppies staring at 1 cat in the house..really like gangster sia..LOL!!after that the cat meow very loudly the owner carry the cat away..it was damn hilarious the whole video after that alpha went home and sleep and i gettin myself to sleep too haha..really hope he can wake up send me go to camp..OK thats all for now! See ya Guys After 2 weeks :)Labels: Important fren in ur part of life
posted at [1:32 PM]
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wad a mess lols..
hmmmm..first thing i had to mention here is i totally gave up on the gal i love and i told her is better we still remain as frens..so i think i wont be mention about stuffs between me and her in the future in here oso le..haha..and also boon yan..u put dis in ur msn nick In the end what can time prove..i find it very meaningful but seriously time can prove anythings..i dun know how to answer u dis oso..and xiang yuan..hope u really cherish ur chance and prove urself to the gal u love dun be like me dun even have a chance to prove end up giving up like a lousy guy haha..den jus now went out with alpha to send his girlfriend home he injured his leg quite badly haizz...after sending his gf home we talk a lot while walking and taking bus home..i really like dis feeling talking to him..i told him the day i had a girlfriend would never come cos i will never understand wad a gal feel or like..i will be jus their burden..why not i jus wash my hands off all these love stuffs but i do know i will open my heart again for someone dat i like or a person dat like me in the future..
To Alpha..
bro..i can say i dun understand u 100%..but i do understand u 99% of it..jus wanna say sorry..sometimes i jus dun know how to express out things to u..i think..the reason i dun have gf is i am ugly and i sux in everything ba..but nvm..got u to stand by me i will be content for it already..Labels: friends are important..
posted at [12:33 PM]
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Can't help loving you each day i wake up
Finally update my blog here since for ard 1 week plus i think..
Today i went to alpha school and play basketball but when i step into his school everyone treated me like alien sia..cos my sch uniform shirt infront is zip up de..dis shirt only Simei ITE sells it haha..den after that when alpha and his fren benny came we start warming up play basketball..got 5 other guys joined in so we deicide to play 4 vs 4 in the end i end up with 3 guys which i dun even know as a team..was thinking to be in alpha team de haizz..den 2 of the guys in my team damn show off..in the whole game i only score like 2 goals i think haha..while playing i did notice She came to sit down on the chair with her fren..but when she saw me she went off..after the bball game ended i went to a block downstairs and slack while waiting for alpha to release from school and i sms her dat i didnt saw her haizz..in actual fact i did saw her de..after that i call up 1 of my fren and chat for ard 2 hrs plus i think den jus nice going to 4 o clock i go back in clementi ITE wait for alpha den we kept chattin but..i kept mention about her dat i think she hates me ba..when we reach the bus stop while waiting for the bus alpha intro me to his classmates lols so pai seh sia..but they were nice ppl haha..and when we taking bus alpha as usual see me EMO he said he regret intro her to me..i said that is not ur fault is i am the 1 which is foolish and i dun know why i love her so much..i told alpha that i really dun wan to say i wan to giv up on her cos i dun wan to break my promise for her..i really jus wan to lie to myself dis once and last time dat she will love me one day and i know i am jus plain foolish and gamble everything..haizz thats all for today i am sorry alpha :(
To Angela,
i am sorry..i did saw u in sch today..i guess u were scared of me and u chose to walk away ba..and 1 of the msg i sended u is i wan u to be happy and dun feel so down..cos i can still hold on to u i am jus plain foolish doing as many things for u as i can and waiting for u to love me
dere is once u called my fone i am sorry i didnt pick up cos i didnt notice it but i really wan to hear u telling me ur feelings when u feel sad and down..if anything i can do for u i hope u can tell me..remember i told u dat even if is only 1% of chance u will fall me i will oso keep trying till it happens..i wont break the promise saying those words dat made u cry..and dont worry u don't have to love someone till u sad..cos i can afford to love u with all my heart even if u don't love me..Labels: what to do..
posted at [2:33 AM]
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lols..bored day..
lols..seriously i don't wad to post today oso..and is a late post too haha..seriously doing nth much today..but i did 1 very good thing today is cheering myself up by telling myself that..i dont really have to wait for her till i get very emo..why not i jus treat her good as a good fren and be there for her when she needs me maybe one day who knows? she might fall in love with me haha..cos..wads meant for me it will really be mine noting for me to get emo or sad about it..and around 5 o clock i meet alpha and his family for some dinner..after that went to lan shop and play DOTA for ard 1 and a half hour den we went to pick up alpha's girlfriend from work..den we went to eat again and i saw alpha and his girlfriend playing ard biting each other haha! indeed i am jealous and envy of dem..but i oso tell myself that my happiness will come one day oso..its jus a matter of time,fate and patience..and oso guess wad? i even told angela that no need to be sad about the guy she likes dosen't likes her..cos wads belong to her it will evenually come to her..and one last thing is..alpha..try to drink more coffee cos i see u these days very tired LOL!! kkz end of my post todayLabels: Loving U always :)
posted at [9:25 AM]
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I have too much things to say in this post i guess..first thing..Angela gave me a chance and gave her ownself a chance to stead with me and try out..yesterday my birthday we went together as stead..but i know she don't even have feelings for me..while we taking train to orchard..i kept hugging her tightly in my arms..when we finally reached..we went for abit shopping and while shopping i kept holding on to her hand..after that we went to burger king and eat(thx for treating me eat angela) and we kept laughing and chattin very happily den i requested that we proceed to plaza singapura..as usual we do some window shopping and chattin happily along the way..after that she say she quite tired and wanted to go home..so i offered to send her home..while taking the train she suddenlly sleep on my chest and i sleep beside her too..in actual fact when we go out..i kept taking out my phone and see the time..i told her that i kept doing it because i wish that time will stop at the moment but i know i will be jus lying to myself cos it will never happen..when i reached her hse we kept chattin with each other..she told me she's sorry that she jus not prepared to love someone..i cried..and she hug me and say she didnt meant to hurt me..i told her that i cried is nt because u hurt me is becuase i am scared u might feel sad everytime without any guy that truly loves u..and i didnt mean to make u cry too..its jus i wanted to say out wad is in my heart...you don't have to love me now..but i can love and take care of u whenever u need me..you don't have to be like last time where u have to love a guy which don't love u and makes u hurt everytime..i promised u that u will never be hurt by anyone..if u really wan to make me give up loving u..i shall tell u that is not gonna work..cos i tell myself that one day u will love me..even if its jus a bit is enough to go back to that moment we had..i will be waiting at that moment we are together again as a loving couple..don forget i am still in your waiting list as the only person hor :)Labels: First and Last
posted at [8:16 AM]
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If i let you go,i will never know wad my life will be holding u close to me
Today i have nothing much to say though..i jus recive a msg by alpha's girlfriend saying that our supervisor say if Me and alpha dun go work on sat and sun den we no need go again le..Wth lo..saturday i birthday u expect me to work on that day meh...Haizz never mind la..since i going in army in a month time only..Wad really hurts my heart today is i told the girl i really love that i only like her very much as a friend..cos i still don't have the courage to tell her how i feel for her and treating her good is wad i wanted her to feel that she is fortunate and making her happy...i really wanted to see the outcome..i dun mind even if is bad or good..why cant i jus say out my true feelings...haizzzLabels: painful heart
posted at [11:04 PM]
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